2 months

I already miss the newborn stage. Lillian was so tiny and cute!!! It breaks my heart just a little bit to watch the videos or look at the photos from those first few weeks together because I know we can never go back in time. I am a little sad that she is growing too fast, I want to go back to our hospital room and live there forever. At the same time, I can't help but feel excited for every new day and each new thing she learns! I heard on the news once that the connection between a mother and baby had been documented in a study measuring electromagnetic brain and heart waves; proving they were on the same wavelength. Since Lillian was born, I’ve felt that we had this type of connection, most notably in our sleep cycles. When we’re sleeping in separate rooms, sometimes I would wake up and not hear a sound- but while I was lying there awake, after only a few minutes I would hear her wake up and cry for me. I’m always amazed that I could tell she was about to wake up and be hungry. When we sleep in the same room, which we do almost everyday, we do seem to wake up together but I’m not quite sure if she was already awake and a noise woke me up or vice versa. The nerd in me thinks it's my biological clock but I like to hope we have this amazing type of connection! 


This month, my mom went with me to Lillian's 2 month appointment. It was a tremendous help because I had TONS of questions and loved having her there for support. But first: This little girl has grown so much since birth, measuring perfectly -- right along her growth curve. Lillybug definitely went through a growth spurt- a majority of our day was spent with a fussy baby who was constantly wanting to be nursed and rocked back to sleep. Some days, the only way we could get Lillian to stop crying was to put her in the stroller for a walk, with the fresh pacific ocean breeze in the air. We didn't mind though as it was nice to get out, especially since my incision was beginning to feel much better. This went on for about a week and I was still feeling exhausted from the lack of sleep since we were waking up to nurse every 2-3 hours at night. Somehow, I still enjoyed every minute of our 2am and 4 am feedings. She was definitely growing and the fact that she was already wearing 3-6 month outfits, proved it. What a big girl I thought. 


This month, I began my final clinical internship at the hospital which meant pumping for me and bottle feeding for Miss Lillian. She adapted so well and was always hungry, eating 5 ounches and sometimes wanting more. It was around this time when something magical happened almost the day that Lillian turned 6 weeks old. She became vocal and I like to say her first word/sound she made was "acruu".  She would make this noise when we would speak with her and sometimes laugh with this adorable high pitched squeal. She really began cooing a lot and I really enjoyed this phase of her development. Lillian's personality was quickly evolving and is still taking up every ounce of my heart. She was physically developing too- gaining much better head control, bringing her hands towards her mouth and trying to help her Oma hold the bottle during feedings.  Lillian was beginning to hold her head up during tummy time, noticing and paying attention to toys, rattles, sounds and the books I was reading to her.

 Since Lillian was becoming more engaged and aware of her surroundings, together, we enjoyed singing and dancing, playing in the mirror, laying on soft blankets and looking at toys- anything to help her learn and explore. It has been eight weeks of nothing but fun, and even on the hardest days I wish time would tick by a little slower.  We celebrated Lillian's very first 4th of July! The 4th of July to our family always means cooking out, swimming, and watching fireworks. Good old fashioned family fun to celebrate the independence of our country. This year, we made a nice feast at the house, just the three of us, and watched the parade on pioneer. Lillian was so interested and watched as every car, float and group of people walked by. Month two flew right on by... I don't know how many times I will say "where has the time gone," but seriously WHERE has the time gone!? It's a crazy thing, when your little baby first arrives, you want them to stay a tiny little, snuggly, bundle forever. But as they start to grow and interact with you, you become obsessed with every little milestone. It is so much fun watching her eyes light up when she sees new things, seeing her smile so big in the morning when we appear in front of her when she wakes up or hear her babble and coo to us when we talk to her. Pure joy & entertainment! 

It seems like just yesterday we brought her home from the hospital & now she has an adorable smile and personality that melt my heart every day. Plus, I am sure she is the most adorable baby I have ever seen. Yes, I may be biased... but you have to admit, she is pretty cute, right? :) I am so looking forward to all of her milestones.